it's over. I just need God alone and I'll be okay.
all this pain all this worry all this sorrow all this crappy feelings all will gone. God'll help me forget them, He will.
and that's all that matters. or at least, for now, I think.
just until olevels, until then I've got to hold it in. and I can, cause God's with me. He was, is and will forever be. so, I'm gonna be okay. I'm gonna be okay.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
6:01 PM
I need to work, I know. then why am I lazing here? shrugs. I wanna sleep. but I can't. boo.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
11:50 PM
My sleeping habits are getting worse by the day. I have to sleep much much earlier. I left my amath textbook and notebook in school): I was probably too high that I forgot to take them from my table locker. shucks.
A week of holiday. And I stupidly piled all my homework.
Homework: - Finish Chemistry TYS. - Emath textbook (I'm almost done). - Amath test 1 and 2. - Do up every other TYS (Physics, Amath, Emath). - And of course, study.
Classmates are planning to go bowling/pool on monday. I'm not sure if I'm going though it has been quite a while since I played pool. bahhhhh, I'll see how.
Nisya's birthday's coming!~
Monday, June 15, 2009
12:21 AM
I tried editing and making a picture, but failed. I should just study. boo):
I suddenly want the pictures from tania's farewell. but I don't have them. everyone else does but me)': I'm not much of a picture person after all.
great, I'm lagging. got to study. study study study study study study study. man, I wonder what could get better.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
3:54 PM
I'm shocked to be here.
I've been motivated to study. I've got to study. and I will study. just a matter of fact how MUCH I'm going to study. I pray, it's a lot.
nothing seems to fit but maybe it's meant to be that way. SYF is over, with a Gold with Honours. Wedding's over, with a wonderful GPK. Mid years are over, with terrible results. Olevel Chinese is over, with crapful writing. Holidays, are near to be over, with a geek at work. oh but sorry, no geeks, just freaks - who aren't overly freaky.
maybe I'd do graphic designing. it's just a maybe.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
9:45 PM
it's a miracle that I'm here. thought a little change would be fun.
yesterday was hectic. sectionals at seven in the morning, followed by chinese creative writing lesson at onefifteen and later choir. and there was an exchange with RI at their place. night study after that until nine.
we did terribly for the exchange. I was totally shocked when joel did a thumbs up to me. I was like "are you kidding?" ben said we were good. I replied "no. we were bad."
haven't talked to ben in a long time. we only say hi and bye. and that only happens when a.e.w. calls him over and chats to him. if she doesn't do that, we won't even greet each other. choir went to his (RI-JC) concert the other week. and they were awesome. I loved them. and perfect pitch (PP) was like... perfectly pitched? well, his voice is more of the gentle type. and maraccas guy has a really strong voice. I liked the first girl soloist and the little girl too.
after the exchange, we went back and had a long debrief. we were almost an hour and a half late for night study. rushed through the comprehension but I didn't make it. and I was on a high, which I simply had no reason to be.
went home alone that day because the rest went to eugene's house to celebrate his birthday.
I did terribly for common test. or at least I'm sure I did. we're getting our results back soon, I guess. and that's bad, cause I think I'll just be stunned. but oh wells. I have to drop everything soon and just concentrate on my studies. but that will only happen after may. SYF isn't my last hurdle. there's something bigger than that.
today was miss cheng's wedding. and I feel awfully stupid and crappy. because I woke up late and totally missed the ceremony. freak. but it's over, so whatever. and I wanted to go):
I'm never going to finish my homework, at the rate I am at. but can't be helped, just more sleepless nights.
rain down, all around the world we're singing.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
7:24 PM
wonder what's becoming of the world today. or more like what's becoming of me.
physics test is tomorrow. bio and social studies are on friday. how sweet. I'm going to be moody and all from the lack of sleep.
audition is on friday. how wonderful. I don't ever want to screw up. I feel sick and tired of everything. and it's too early to be. there's still many many months to olevels and I'm already dreading it. but it's a fact that I can't change and I'll do something about it. something, sometime.
valentine's coming. I can't fold the butterflies on time. don't really know what I'm going to do. but academic comes first. and sleep comes next.
peer support programme is driving me nuts. at least I can sit back tomorrow while vanessa controls the whole thing. I'm not sure how it'll work out but I'll be simply studying about the reproduction in humans, which I'm not looking forward to. I bet noel's jumping for joy.
I never felt this way before -- and it hurts.
the anthem
Just so you know, this place is hardly alive.
together we sing
Judaxil, simple as that. A sixteen year-old who loves food. 29thJan is celebrated. Dunman Secondary and the
two time GWHDmnChoir has brought highs and lows in her always up-down life. B is the class and Altos was
the section. Also the Assistant Director of Peer Support who has done practically nothing.
loves God; loves to draw; loves to dream.
